Forevermore
This is Enjiou's blog Forevermore and the owner of suBlime-ness.skills...-.- I'm really a hypocrite.
我希望時間停著
永遠在你身邊
I've lost the key to open up my heart
Wednesday, April 11, 200711:19 p.m.
I've been really busy and I will be until May 17 when my AP exam is over. but my junior year will be equally busy too.. but I have no AP history because I just don't like history and do not want to study for the history exam.
A short update on my life. really short. life sucks. That basically says it all. Now I have to study for my AP exam and I'm hoping I can get a 4 out of 5 and if I get 5 I will be extremely happy. I must prove to others that I can go solo and still beat them.
My spring break was fun. Our orchestra went to New York because of our performance at Carnegie Hall. The hall was beautiful. The trip was fun but the food was awfully a lot. A person couldn't go hungry from all that food. However, one thing I didn't like was that I don't have much friends. What disturbs me more is that my "group" that I hang out with talks/flirts with guys more than they talk to me. Is there a bigger problem in me or do I just talk to soft? Whenever I talk I feel as if I'm shouting so I don't know...
I have this thing where I analyze people. I like to observe others and find out what type of person they are (girl/boy). I tend to observe smart/flirty/quiet/obnoxious/kind and all those other stuff. I don't know why I do it I just do. I don't say it to others I just keep it in my head but should I keep doing it? Somethimes I think analyzing restricts my friends and if I opened myself to different people I would have more friends. However with peer pressure I want to be like everyone and close myself to asian friends.
have a happy holiday
Monday, December 25, 20067:58 p.m.
merry christmas!
wow, I haven't been on in a long time. I've been busily trying to pull my grades up, but I am still desperately trying to bring up my math grade. However, our winter break has started and now I have 2 weeks with no school. I hope to finish my homework first and then I can have the remaining days to do whatever I want. I also have to work on my piano pieces since i have to memorize 5 songs by february. so its christmas today and i got a phone xD... its too late to make a holiday layout now since its almost over and i haven't been online since last month...
school resumes January 8 for me and hopefully I'll post again before. Sometimes I think that time is going way ahead of me and I am falling behind. I just hope that I can get all As by the end of January. I especially need to work hard in math and be extra careful of my grade, a very low B...
Even though its winter and I have two weeks off, its still very stressful with all of my ap homework and next year it will be even worse with more than one ap.. I'm thinking that I don't want to do more than one ap next year -___- I really should find something else to talk about rather than rant on and on about how lazy I am and how school is so hard...I should be trying harder to get an A.
Another rant...thing...I really need to make a friend. I feel I am too quiet in front of my classmates. I don't know why I feel so uncomfortable talking to them since I've known most of for several years, some from junior high and elementary school..
I also think that everyone including myself is prejudice to others and we assume things about others based on their race, looks, classes, etc. In my experience, when someone is not in all honors/AP and they are all "this person is stupid" even though they might not be smart in one subject and is good at other things. This affects me since I try to get into honors classes just to "fit in" and not be the "stupid" person. Even I sometimes am the person who calls the person not in all honors "stupid". I really think it is okay if your friends don't have the same classes as you, although I don't have the confidence to speak up and show it. What I know is that I need a friend who we can confide in and we can joke around and study with and all the other stuff friends do with each other.
So, now on to happy thoughts. I am now going on forums but its so hard to actually "chat" with when I go on a forum its an old one and no one has been on since a week so there isn't anyone else on... I also need some good sites to go to, whether they are rpgs, forums, games, or whatever. Speaking of sites, I just went back on neopets and I can't seem to remember my password so I can't play anymore. -___- and I liked my character... my user was mistyshowers. I don't want to make a new user because then I have to start all over even though my account wasn't that good.
Being Lazy? I think not.
Thursday November 9 20068:53 p.m.
The title? Yes, I'm very lazy...trying not to and then failing...like I'm doing now...going on the computer when I'm not supposed to...and then I'm lazy for starting late on my homework and having to work at night as a consequence of starting my homework at night. How ironic is it that I go on the computer constantly and I haven't blog. I am lazy for not blogging since three months.
We had no school today and tomorrow because its a four day weekend. I started doing my history notes, but I only got half way. I need another method of doing notes >.o I was thinking about reading Julius Caesar over the weekend but I still have a test the coming tuesday on my current book so I probably won't have time to get a head start reading that. And I still have to do my english essay and I need to find three more quotes, which I should get started on... writing essays seems easy (even though I always get a bad grade) because I mean there's only 5 paragraphs and about 4 pages double spaced, which is equal to 2 pages. If I divide the 2 pages equally, then each paragraph would be less than 1/2 a page. That way, it doesn't seem overwhelming, but I have bad reasoning and analyzing... For me, the hardest part in the essay is finding the right quote so it's easier to analyze.Sometimes I have a lot of homework one day, and then not a lot of homework on some days. Usually I have more homework Sunday, only because I procrastinate on history notes and I end up having to read 20-30 pages of notes nad then doing the notes. I should highlight my notes according the PERSIAN which I did once and I accomplished the task in one hour..or at least for the notes part. but that time I only got an A when I could get an A+. The last two times, I did the same way as before when I got A+ but I only got an A so I should do the PERSIAN thing again.
Another thing is: I'm a sophomore and is it too early to be preparing for SATs and colleges? Or is it late/good time to be preparing? It's so weird so teachers always tell you not to use prep books and online sources for help but the SATs is something that is depended on the prep books and everyone uses it to get a good score. It is highly unlikely to get 800 or high 700's on the SATs without taking prep classes and practice exams. It's always ironic how the teachers such as writing that you should depend on the textbook and your own knowledge, not to depend on prep books out there and online tutorials and guides such as sparknotes. Teachers consider these aids to be cheating but if you don't use aids for the SATs you won't be able to do well on them. I think the SATs should be more on general ideas that you can learn from class and textbooks instead of having students desperately buying prep books in order to watch out for traps and stuff not found in the textbook or everyone should use the same textbook as long as we speak and read the same language.
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